It all started 5 months ago when my daughter was a newborn. I heard a knock on the door and found a beautiful, peaceful woman at my door. She introduced herself and she seemed very pleasant, she saw I had the new baby and the other two and said, “can I leave these with you?” extending her hand out with a copy of Watchtower. I said yes, but I’m not going to convert or anything. She said, “that’s fine, I’ll be back another time”. I watched her get into the backseat of a loaded up car. I thought about it and realized I’m a Christian without borders, being raised a Catholic, married to a Baptist and now myself putting my kids in a Baptist environment. We probably have more in common than we think.
A few weeks passed and she came again. This time I was actually dressed and my house looked like it had been cleaned, so I asked her to come in. We spoke and exchanged pleasantries. She looked around and asked about some things. She left me with a nice study book (150 pages or so) and asked if she could come study with me. I said, “fine”. She said, “I’ll be back again soon”. I could tell she was on a mission and I had every intention of studying and making this worth her while.
A few more weeks passed and she came again. She asked if I had the book she had left so we could study. I went through a flurry of searching and could not find the book or my Bible anywhwere! The embarassment, the shame! ugghh! I finally found my emergency Bible I keep in the car. We opened our Bibles and she gave me her study book. We looked up the passages and she explained some things to me. We set a date & time for the next week. She was no sooner out of the driveway that I remembered the spot I put my Bible & study book! I thought to myself, I’m doing great I’m on an appointment basis!
I had the house all ready, tea steeping, mugs out, kids deprived of t.v. all morning ready to watch and sit motionless, back-up containers of goldfish in case they really get antsy. She arrived just on time and with a friend! After the introductions, tea pouring, passing Miss L around, the new lady was holding the baby. We started the lesson. All of a sudden, Miss L has a horrible accident all over the lady! It was really bad. She ran to the bathroom, I grabbed Miss L and started to change her. The original lady ran back and forth from both of us laughing, it was funny, but I was too stressed to see it. In the end I had to run down and put the woman’s dress in the dryer… After all the hand washing and cleaning up… We got back to the lesson.
After that making a date again.
I was ready just like before, I also had studied and waited. Waited some more… two shows went by and they were not here. I’d been stood up!! After another show I was in total disbelief. I went out to water my roses and pack the kids up in the minivan. While I’m out there, here they come! almost 2 hours late. She’d totally forgotten about our meeting and was coming to apologize… they all were apologizing… I told them it was no big deal, and it wasn’t, it just stunned me as I’m used to being in a position of power with Jehovah’s Witnesses. I’m the one who used to slam the door in their faces when they’d come to the door or not answer at all… after all I was a latch-key kid and didn’t want to let people in, but the truth is I was scared they’d tell me something about myself I didn’t want to hear.
Back to the story, we set another date and she apologized and that was fine. Somewhere in this period, I decided I needed one place to keep our Bibles and study books. I found the perfect basket where I can stand them all up. I keep the Bible Basket by the front door. In a pinch I could grab the basket, when at home I can just keep them visually out but not cluttered.
We met two other times and set another date for yesterday. Once again, I was ready, kids in a position ready to be quiet for 1/2 an hour, tea steeped, mugs out, Bible, study book, and now a notebook for notes, I was really happy and excited to study with her! I waited and waited… an hour into it I realized it had happenned again. I had been stood up. I realize now that there is a great sense of urgency all of a sudden. What made me accept that first pamphlet and let her in my home and now my heart? I don’t know what happenned yesterday, I hope all is well with her, but I now realized how much our time together means to me. Maybe that’s what I was avoiding all along, contact with other people, in any case, I’m glad that we are studying together.